It’s been such a roller coaster of a week so far. I have been feeling so run down, both physically and emotionally.
I’ve sciatica-like pains for the past week or so now, something that always happens when I overwork myself. I know I’m also well overdue for a visit to my chiro, but my tight schedule and budget just hasn’t allowed for one yet. It’s been affecting my sleep as well, and so I’ve just been trying to handle things best I can with what little sleep I have had and it hasn’t been great.
I’m also in that weird transition period between starting a new job and finishing up at my old one, so I’m trying to juggle two jobs at once (I’m talking late shifts followed up with early shifts – and repeat). On Monday I had my first day at the new job and it was great! I’m still trying to get myself accustomed to new tasks and things though, and I know that it will take time so I’m trying not to be too hard on myself. But I guess patience has never really been a virtue of mine! I know I shouldn’t expect myself to be perfect on my first day, but I’ve always had such ridiculously high expectations of myself and it gets me down when I haven’t met them. I know I really need to learn to be gentler to myself, and it’s definitely a work in progress.
On Tuesday I gave in my resignation to my current job, and that was pretty awful. I really love the people I work with despite how much I hate the actual job, so I almost felt like I was letting the team down by leaving. My manager was incredibly supportive, but I could tell she was pretty upset. It was horrible. I know I shouldn’t feel guilty for wanting to try out a new path for myself, but I did.
I texted Jared during the day telling him how bad I felt, and he responded with, “Well, to quote one of your favourite movies… It was always going to be a totally shit time.” He was actually quoting Love, Actually to me. What a darling. I didn’t even think he knew that was one of my favourite rom-coms, or that he remembered anything from the times I’ve made him watch it with me. It definitely brought a smile to my face.
And he was right. It was always going to a totally shit time. It’s hard, trying to adjust to a new job, juggling excitement with nervousness. Add to that, the fear of failure, the fear of leaving something comfortable for something unknown and also the awful feeling that you have to leave some people behind to pursue your new path.
All that with a lack of sleep and a dodgy hip? Well, it’s no wonder I’m feeling like this!
I just have to keep reminding myself that it isn’t selfish to want more out of life, and to leave behind something that no longer makes me happy. And that fear of failure or a fear of moving on should never stop me from trying something new. Plus, I’ll only be juggling two jobs for 2 weeks, then after that I’ll just have my new role to focus on which will be a big relief. It will only be 3-4 days as well, giving me time to blog/cook/create more and also find time to do some things for myself, like going to yoga classes more regularly and visiting my chiro.
Until then, I’ve just gotta suck it up and stick it out! Come on Laura, you can do this!!
Now. One thing that has been making this week easier is meal prepping. I wasn’t a big fan of it previously, but now that we’re so busy, it makes sense for us to prep large batches of food at a time to eat during the week for our lunches. On Sunday I made us some Lime & Chilli Chicken Wings and roasted veggies, and they lasted us a few days. It was so good not having to worry about making/packing meals each day!
To make the marinate, I pounded together some chillies, paprika, coconut sugar and oregano into a paste with a mortar and pestle, then added olive oil and stirred it all together. It’s not essential to use the mortar and pestle, and if you don’t have them, you can always just finely slice the chilli and oregano, mince the garlic and stir it all together that way. But I think this would be best done with a mortar and pestle, simply for the fact that the flavours, consistency and overall taste would be better when smashed like this!
I then poured the marinate over some organic chicken wings, tossed it all through and let it sit in the fridge for an hour to soak up all those delicious flavours. With the chicken wings, I like to cut them into the wing and drummette (purely so it’s easier to pick up and eat) and I also put little slits into each piece so the marinate could get into the chicken for more flavour.
After they marinate, I just laid them out on a baking tray and cooked them for half an hour in the oven, basting a couple of times to keep them juicy and flavoursome.
They were simple to make, and because wings are such a cheap cut of meat, this was a very budget friendly meal! Even for organic wings, it only cost me $7 a kilo. I had all of the spices I needed at home, so it worked out to be a couple of dollars for each our lunches.
I also roasted up some organic root veggies (potatoes, carrots and pumpkin) in some olive oil and mixed spices and added them to the lunches.
- 2-3 chillies (depending on spice preference)
- 2 cloves garlic
- 1 heaped tablespoon sweet paprika
- 1 heaped tablespoon coconut sugar
- 1 tablespoon of fresh oregano
- 2 tablespoons fresh lime juice
- 1/2 cup olive oil
- 1 kilo chicken wings, cut into wings and drumettes
- Pound chilli, garlic, paprika, coconut sugar and pregano with a mortar and pestle into a paste. (If you do not have one, please see notes below).
- Add the lime juice and olive oil to the mortar and stir well.
- Scoop out two tablespoons of sauce and put aside.
- Pour the rest of the lime and chilli sauce over the chicken and mix until chicken is evenly coated.
- Place in fridge to marinate for an hour.
- Pre-heat oven to 180 degrees celcius.
- Arrange chicken on a baking tray and bake for 30mins. With the reserved marinate, baste the chicken wings 2-3 times during this time.
- Serve with fresh lime wedges!
- If you don't have a mortar and pestle, just finely slice the chilli and oregano, mince the garlic and stir all the marinate ingredients together in a bowl rather then with a mortar and pestle.