I am an overthinker. I always have been, and I probably always will be. Unfortunately, I’m also stubborn, headstrong and a perfectionist. It’s a big combination, and I can thank my parents for a couple of them (yes, I’m looking at you mum).
Ultimately, these traits not only make me, they sometimes also break me. In a positive light, they are the reason I am able to organise our budgeting and expenses so well, they are the drive behind me spending hours perfecting a recipe and they are the reason why I do a lot of the things I do really well. However. They are also the reason why I can’t shut my brain off a night time, why I work myself up into a frenzy when things don’t go to plan, why I struggle to admit when I’m wrong and why I can overthink a situation to death if I let myself.
It’s something I’m trying to work on, and lately it’s been getting worse with so many events coming up that I have plan and budget for. I think and think and think, and when I feel like I can’t think anymore, I snap from mental exhaustion. And usually the person who has to cop that lashing is J. He doesn’t doesn’t deserve it. And this morning after my usual bi-weekly lashing, I decided enough is enough. Something’s gotta give, and it’s gotta give now.
After J left for his course, I sat myself down came up with a plan. I love lists, I love organising things and I love being able to write things down. It comes with being a perfectionist, I think. So I figured, what better way to make use of all these thoughts, and my perfectionism, than by writing them all down and organising them?
I started with a “master list” of all the biggest topics/issues floating around in my head. Then under that list, I used each topic as a heading, and wrote up a bunch of tasks/things I had to do for each topic.
By the time I was done, I had written up about 2 pages of things and I felt SO much better. Visually, I could see exactly what it was I needed to and how to go about it all. Mentally, my head space seemed so much clearer because my thoughts weren’t running amok in there. And physically, I felt no more tension anywhere because the “weight” was lifted off my shoulders.
It was a big learning curve too, because it forced me to accept I had flaws, embrace them, and then use them for something positive, rather than have them consume me in a negative way. So I think a lot? That’s not a bad thing necessarily, I just have to learn to not let myself get overwhelmed by them. So I’m a perfectionist that likes to see things organised? I can either let that rule my life, or I can use it to improve it. So I’m stubborn and headstrong? Instead of being stubborn with every-single-damn-thing, I can learn to channel it and instead use it as my drive to constantly succeed and improve on things.
So if you’re anything like me, do it. You have nothing to lose by trying it out, and everything to gain if it turns out that getting out of your own head and getting it onto paper was all that was needed to clear your head and create a better headspace.
Now. Onto even better things than self acceptance and mind clearing – pancakes. Ok, maybe they’re not better, but they’re definitely up there in my list “great things in this world.” As most of you know, I have a 3 Ingredient Pancake recipe that I always turn to, but last week I didn’t have any bananas and I was really craving pancakes, so I had to get creative. Enter ricotta cheese. I’ve never tasted or made ricotta pancakes in my life prior to this, so I really had no idea what I was doing or if these were even going to end up edible. But they surprised me by being the softest, and nicest pancakes I have ever made. And that’s a big call.
I thought they might have been a fluke, so I tried out the recipe again this week and again… amazing. So here’s the recipe for you all to enjoy! My favourite way to have these is topped with extra ricotta, berries and freshly squeezed lime or lemon juice. J does not like pancakes, but he loved these with just a little vanilla sugar on top and lots of lime. So give them a go, and let me know how you like them best!
- 2 tablespoons ricotta cheese
- 1/3 cup oat flour*
- 1 tablespoon milk (I used organic brown rice milk)
- 1 egg**
- 1 teaspoon lime juice
- 1/2 teaspoon honey or rice malt syrup
- 1 teaspoon coconut oil
- Extra ricotta, berries and a wedge of lime
- Place all ingredients (minus coconut oil and toppings) into a small blender and mix until just combined.
- Heat oil on a medium heat and pour in 1/3 of mix.
- Flip pancake when bubbles appear on surface.
- Repeat with remaining mix.
- Serve with toppings.